Embrace me.

20050831

haha.he cried tdy =/

tchers day.
nthg much.just e same old thing evry year;
oh well.
went to j8 after that.
catch 'charlie and e chocs factory'.
okay fine.this movie showed long long ago-
and its freakg coldd~
i kinda feel sad.
shant tell u why! (:

tingyuan[x]
updated-

If you'd only let me be the one to hold you;
And keep you here with me,
Cause I'm trying trying to forget you girl.

<3.
In love and death.
5:09:00 PM

20050830

i may sound abit.you know.bad lar,or what.
but you know,for those who wanna buy me a present.
this is what i want lar.

1. adidas black and pink bag!
2. wenting's wallet ; black version!
3. pencil case.BIG one!
4. quiksilver sling bag ;its a fake lar (brown color)!
5. 64mb memory card -
6. something W something W somehting L.(:
7. PIGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG!!!(x
8. all of you to come to my BBQ!

bahbah.
im okay with all these alr.
haha(:
im nt THAT greedy.

tingyuan[x]
updated-

why do birds suddenly appear ;
everytime you are near?
just like me,they long to be ;
CLOSE TO YOU -

<3.
In love and death.
6:09:00 AM

12.30am sharp ;
im supposed to use the internet for online chinese dictionary because apparently,i cant find mine!but there's this stupid thing,i cant even search for one!all those come out frm yahoo and google are craps lar!what the hell!should have gone to sleep than meddling with this kinda stuffs! GRRRR-
anyway,ive gave up on this poems thing.gotta do 3 poems and translate one from a malay name to chinese name.gotta pass up by 30/08/2005,chinese lesson.tell you what,im not be able to finish it. =/
so i must as well come here and blog.haha(:
had oral.and e conversation was like,i only rmb telling ms lau that i wanna be a pilot.e brush teeth part i've forgotten 80% of it.HAHA!well,what should we do is just continue our lives and wait for e results to appear on our damn grey color report bk. =;)
so e bbq is on.around 40 ppl are invited(: plus and minus those who are not gg and those who will be dragged there.(:
IT'S THIS SATURDAY OKAYYYY!
heehee.
im so lking forward to this annual thing.
and wish that something miraculous will happen to me on that day ;
but well,
since its miraculous.its 95% to impossible.
IMPOSSIBLE IS NOTHING.
haha.what the hell lar.i go and sleep le (:
DUNN MISHH MWEE WORRX! (ewww..)

tingyuan[x]
updated-

we both know ;
it's better if we just let it go (:

<3.
In love and death.
12:37:00 AM

20050828

blogged just to reply my darling's tags(:
yups.thnk goodness yeeling and cassandra will be coming over straight after their performance(:
yay!
dont wry.tk your time.i thnk i will make it a 3 days 2 nights thing.lyk staying over on fri and sat.so we'll pack up and leave only on sunday morning.haha=;)
haha.sounds like a m'sia tour or something like that.
to my girlfriends ; make sure that you guys come kay(: but you guys have to accompany to shop for bbq stuffs and food larr.and helping me to clear up e mess after the crazzaye night(:
goshh -
i just cant wait for my birthday to arrive!
YIPPEEE~!

tingyuan[x]
updated-

sheng ri kuai le ;
wo dui zi ji shuo.

<3.
In love and death.
12:48:00 PM

20050827

yay!
ive found a sponser for my birthday bbq party!my beloved dajieis giving me a sum of money(: hehheh.in exchange for i give up nicky lee's and alex to's original cd =/
im thnking.if i shud have a bbq party or go kbox.but i know if i celebrate my bdae at kbox,huixian wudnt be gg.and my e3 darlings and other friends wudnt be gg too.so i must well get a bbq party with everyone gg(: and thats cheaper too.
but e problem is ; yeeling and cassandra has choir performance =/ they cant celebrate w me.huina says that we stay over and blah blah blah.i just hope that all my BELOVEDS are able to make it(:

i hope you can make it too~

tingyuan[x]
updated-

wo de xin dao di li ni you duo yuan ;
nan dao zhen de mei you shen me rang ni liu lian.

<3.
In love and death.
7:26:00 PM

huina is such a nuisance,tagged my blog for so many times!
=;/ --- haha,new icon!depressed moustached-fella!
yay.
ive done most all e home econs coursework and that makes me so relieved!
ilene manda and huina will be in charge of other things which i haven add(:
lala~
they are doing e reflections thing!not me~
hehheh(:
i wanna go out!

tingyuan[x]
updated-

wo zhi xiang yong wo zhe yi bei zi qu ai ni.

<3.
In love and death.
11:24:00 AM

20050826

to my darling huina :
tears are nothing but water that tastes salty ;
don't let it flow down your cheeks for him anymore.

dont thnk too much darling(: whatever may happenes,we will be here for you and thats something no one can replace '
rest assured that everything will pass,like a cloud,very quickly ;
and soon you will be able to see the moon and stars again ( :

lovelove.always -

ive signed up for e superstar( :

tingyuan[x]
updated-

i knew i loved you ;
before i met you.

<3.
In love and death.
6:43:00 PM

20050825

oral tdy =/
this must be e most horrible chinese oral i've ever had.e conversation sucks totally lar.e passage is lyk,wat the hell lor?i felt like readg tongue-twister.i kept repeating that stupid paragraph,wanted to practise more but xinmin finished so fast!GRRR-

luckily,nothing much went wrong for e passage part.mdm nah said,'very good( :' HEHHEH(: at least im quite satisfied for e passage part lar.bt e conversation...WHAT THE HELL LAR,I FORGOTTEN SO MANY WORDS!mine is regarding SMS thing.then i forgot hw to say exceed and beginning of e month in chinese.and mdm nah had this look,a 'i know u always sms weilong' look.and that makes me feel like so terrifieddd~

cried drng assembly lar,i'm just being emotional,nothing much.for those who rly cares about me,well don't worry too much kay?im fine.i just didnt get over e weilong's stuffs thoroughly,but well,i would.went to tp w wenting after oral.was lyk slackg at e foodcourt,trying to choose a song for e peirce superstar thing?and we couldnt remember so many songs and we got so fed uppp. ( :

oh huina.thks for e swt swt name you've given me( : and thks for being beside me whenever i needed you.although i sound mushy but,you knw,since i dont haf a boyfriend,i have to say these things to you first.once i have a boyfriend,i will forget all about you!
im just kidding, mrs phakathorn asawathemetha! (did i spelled it correctly?)

tingyuan[x]
updated-

look at the stars,
look how they shines for you( :

<3.
In love and death.
9:45:00 PM

20050824

ive changed my blogskin to a kinda butterflies one,which slightly make e end of my day happier(:
anyway,had a GREAT GREAT laugh tdy in school with juliet,seah hui and ilene.juliet was like gg to e dnt room and kept talking to mingnan who was sawing his thing.mingnan was nice lar,still talk to us.bt i din focus on what they were talking about,i was looking at e one behind mingnan ;
then juliet started di siao-ing weilong and i din dare to stand there.wanted to cry a few times,but in e end,i din.ive promised amanda if i cries,i'm a pig(: IM NOT!

then we went to e canteen and had a chat there lar.and juliet was like keep making e three of us laugh like there aint tomorrow!and she kept falling down e canteen chair which make us feel rly humoured!after that weilong was playing bball,and juliet decided to throw her fishball inside e bball net.and there she goes,e fishball rly went in and weilong had a great shock!haha.

then e dnt students finished up their stuffs and came to e canteen and sat kinda infront of us,including weilong lar.then juliet was like,kp disiao-ing her ahpa and we were like saying hw compatible is seah hui and juliet's ah pa.seah hui was shy lar!( :

e two tables was like,kp talking craps all e way.and juliet's ah pa was talking on e phone,juliet took my phone and shouted across 'wa lau so near still wanna talk on phone!' fact is,her ah pa isnt talking to her.haha!and you know what we say,we say 'tingyuan-weilong,juliet-mingnan,seahhui-ahpa,so leaving ilene with e two not-so-good choices.but we helped her made e choice,WHITE RABBIT! (x

when they left e table,weilong said bye to me.din wanna say bye back initially,but well,i said.i dont wanna say not because of i hated him,i rly dont hate him.but i just feel kinda embarrassed in front of him.thats why -

sorry juliet,keep making you walking to and fro dnt room.just to accompany me to look at you-know-who larr.( :

-tingyuan [x]
updatedd.

you hold me in your arms ;
and said once again you love me .

<3.
In love and death.
11:45:00 PM

20050821

I CRIED .
I WEEPED.
HOPING YOU WOULD CARE ;
FAT HOPE .
YOU WOUDN'T GIVE A DAMN .

<3.
In love and death.
9:47:00 PM

Like what I've written in my Friendster profile ;
Changes must be made to my life -
Yes,It's true,I need to change my life.
Firstly,this blogskin.
Wanted to change e address of it,but the thought of it make me sick-
Hence,I preferred to stay this way.
I've make it not possible for you guys to see my archives in this blog.
I don't want to get remembered of those unhappiness-
Yups.
Thks for the real minority people who are still caring for me and readg this blog.
It won't be a nuisance if you just tag lar(:
So,thks for all the consoles and stuffs all you guys have given me(x
I promised I will grow strong in a short time ; Yes I will.
But meanwhile,I still cant get him out of my mind.
So,bear w me.
When I'm okay,I will inform you guys. (:

Like whatever that happens,my greatest wish is still wanna be with you.

<3.
In love and death.
12:24:00 PM

20050820

ive uploaded all e pictures taken all these tym in my handphone (:
go and tk a look -
CLICK HERE!
http://www.imagestation.com/album/pictures.html?id=2122064654

<3.
In love and death.
7:46:00 PM

I don't know how to express how I feel now.Maybe words really can't say how depressed I am.But well,I'm relieved to know that you dont like me at all and you really likes her.She's your type of girl I think.I am not.Maybe you like girls with long hair,I'm sorry I snipped it off.
Dont feel guilty okay.It's really not your fault.
I still love you,for the time being.

<3.
In love and death.
10:00:00 AM

20050818

12.38am.

38min after WONG WEI LONG'S BIRTHDAY.

right now ;
mingzhen , ryan , ferdi , eidelwiss .
HAPPY BIRTHDAY

(x

<3.
In love and death.
12:40:00 AM

20050814

[ a n g ry - s e c t i o n ]
do you have a quick temper?
haha.yeap=/
what do you do when you're mad?.
scold and show attitude .
don tel uever made anyone cry when you weremad? who??
erms.i dont knw.maybe?
ever physically hurt someone when you weremad?.
maybe?i can hardly rmb.

[ c r y i n g - s e c t i o n ]
when was the last time you really cried your heartout?.
cant rmb.
ever cried yourself to sleep?.
yeaps(:
ever cried on your friend's shoulder?.
uh.ya-
do you cry when you get an injury?.
depends.
do certain songs make you cry?.
not rly?

[ p a i n - s e c t i o n ]
what's the hardest thing you've ever had to gothrough?.
breaking up w shawn tee.
what's the worst thing you've done to yourself?.
starve myself to save money!
what's the worst thing you've done to somebodyelse?.
nt sure
ever had a painful break up.
yeah.w shawn tee. =/
[h a p p y section.]

are you normally a happy person?.
haha.duh!
what can make you happy?.
be w weilong ! (x
.do you wish you were happier?.
duh.
what makes you the happiest?.
everything makes me happy.ahhah(:
can music make you happy?
maybe?

[s e l f - e s t e e m section.]
do you believe in yourself?.
okayokay lor.
when people say they think you arepretty/cUte, do you deny you are?.
OF COURSE NOT!haha.
are you happy with who you are?
yeaps(:
do you wish you can be someone elsemost of the time?.
NO .

<3.
In love and death.
8:54:00 PM

I really can't stand quarrels anymore!
Especially with the DAMN KENYON PHUA =/
Quarrels must happened everytime we talks.
Goshh -
What kind of LIFE am I leading?
Something which I don't want?!
BLAHS.
Don't know what the hell I'm talking about agn .
=/

FEBRUARY FIFTEEN TWOTHOUSAND&FIVE
AUGUST FIFTEEN TWOTHOUSAND&FIVE
TOTAL = 6 MONTHS = /

<3.
In love and death.
1:47:00 PM

20050813

I hate my heart.
Gonna dig it out and cut it open.
Retrieve someone out.
Go to the top floor,jump
and DROP DEAD =/
Watched Bewitched.
Wasnt what I expected it to be.
Another $9.50 lost.
=/

<3.
In love and death.
12:08:00 AM

20050812

BIRDBIRDBIRDBIRDBIRDBIRDBIRDBIRDBIRDBIRDBIRDBIRDBIRD!
First,I was obsessed w SHITs.
Now,I am obsessed w BIRDs!
(x

I'm nuts!
Carnival tomorrow,gonna help out.
=/
bahbah -

HAPPY 5TH MONTHS,
SHEN HUINA ; MA WEISHENG !

HAPPY 1ST MONTH,
LEE PEIFEN ; CHEN JUNQIANG!
PANG XINYI ; PAN ZUTING!

LOVELOVELOVELOVE! (:

<3.
In love and death.
11:32:00 PM

SHAN'T BE BLOGGING UNTIL I FOUND A NICER BLOGSKIN (:

I LOVE BIRDS !
WO SHI YI ZHI XIAO XIAO XIAO XIAO NIAO .~

I din get e job =/

沈慧娜！马伟胜！
哈比五个月！　
（：　

<3.
In love and death.
10:44:00 PM

20050809

Guess mine is not the first heart broken
My eyes are not the first to cry
I'm not the first to know
There's just no getting over you.

Watching e NDP now.And Ilene's sleeping(: It's lame to watch e NDP agn.When it isnt nice at all. =/
Din knw that Gladys and Kamseng share e same birthday.Haha,what a coincidence(: I'm determined to buy that wallet I think.It's like so damn cool(: Hehheh.But my pocket is going to explode.I dont mind lar,for the sake of something/someone special(x

I'm so glad that my darling triumph bra is so alright.He was suspected of contracting stomach cancer at first.But now,everything is okay! PHEW~

I'm hopelessly devoted to you~

<3.
In love and death.
6:58:00 PM

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!

Cool isn't it?Singapore is 40 years old nw!Haha.Daniel's 14 nw!Ooh,you too,please act like ure age yeah?!
National Day Celebration wasn't that BORED too.It was quite fun singing and dancing e songs.He won a prize lar.Erms,he was handsome.Haha.Oops,shan't talk much about him here.Lest someone copy paste it for him to see.But undoubtedly,he's handsome.For the first time,his voltage was HIGH.=P

The wallet from wallet shop is COOL.It will be mine lar,after I get my money on Wednesday(:

Watch e korean movie tdy.Wasn't bad.It's just that I wasted my money=/ I spent half of e time sleeping in e theartre.BOO!Nevermind,I never will catch my forty-winks in my next movie.HEHHEH!

Probby going with my 2 BRAS on Wednesday!Yippee!It's been so long since we last went out.Or did we ever go out?I mean,in e sense of just e 3 of us.Haha,DOUBTED SERIOUSLY!

I've had another new nickname from youjing they all agn.=/
BIRD TING YUAN!
What the dragon right?Oh my.Haha!

Someone confessed to me that he likes me!Oh my god.Hehheh(:

<3.
In love and death.
12:04:00 AM

20050807

WE DIDNT QUARREL (:
Just this has made me happy.
I Love You, Boy.

Gonna go RED tomorrow (: With my girlfriends.I've bet with Ilene to see if HE* will wear red to school tomorrow.I bet he won't.1 buck is mine!Meanwhile,I lost 1 buck to Ilene already.Because she bet that he will reply and I bet otherwise.She won,obviously.But I'm happy losing e one buck(x.
I'm so obsessed with SHITS now.I am like keep drawing it whenever I feel bored.Haha.Many versions of them.If you want your shit form,just tell me,I will draw it for you in 5 minutes(:
BIRD THONG CHAI is out agn(: YOUJING,I KNW U ARE GG TO BUY HIS ALBUM!
SABAI SABAI~~

WL = WA LAU .

<3.
In love and death.
6:12:00 PM

<3.
In love and death.
3:18:00 AM

20050806

I'm so DARN grateful to HUIJING(: She got me a JOB! Haha and I needn't worry a thing about the MONEY thing already.
The next thing I'm going to do is to save up the money I get from work everyday and buy weilong his birthday present with my FIRST ever pay!And I will treat Huijing to a meal too; (x

Sorry if I have made you embarrassed that day ; I din mean any bad intentions .

<3.
In love and death.
12:52:00 PM

20050805

1.hair color: natural and original (:
2.eye color : natural and original (:
3.skin tone: TANNED!
5.long or short hair: short.
6.piercings: at e most, two .
7.scars: of course!wat’s a man w/o scars?!
8.big butt or little: (x
9.straight: duhh
10.outgoing or shy: both -
11.sarcastic or sincere: both -
12.should he/she have a best friend: duhh
13.should she/he have lots of guy/gal friends: not my problem .
14.should he/she love his/her mother: haha it’s fine but not too mama’s boy
15.should he/she watch guy/girl movies: okay lar I don’t care
16.be smart: yeapyeap
17.be funny: YEAH!
18.be sweet: need not .
19.kiss on the first date: n im okay with it (:
20.lay under the stars with you: HEHHEH!
21.write poetry about you: don’t want lar, too mushy.
22.call you honey, sweetie, or baby: need not.
23.hang out with you and YOUR friend: don’t want.
24.hold your hand: OF COURSE.
25.kiss you: yeapyeap ;
26.sing to you: if his singing is nice.

I woudnt say I love you forever when I don't even know what will happen tomorrow ;
I love you, boy .

<3.
In love and death.
9:39:00 PM

I thought I could run away from you and never think about you ever again.
I cant.

To my dearest brother:
Don't waste your time on such girl,such relationship; the soured relationship.She may be a good friend but she ain't a good girlfriend.

I'm desparately searching for a job.I hope Huijing can help me find one=/ I nearly gave up on going Xi'An.But my darlings managed to convince me to go lar.So I have to get a job as soon as possible to cover the expenses in Xi'An.Hoped so;Crossed fingers.

You are the one that I want.

Happy Birthday Amanda and Siti .
<3>

<3.
In love and death.
8:04:00 PM

20050803

I doubt that I can live any longer ;

tkcare ; my dearies .
i may sound pathetic .
bt then every wrd i say, may come true.
ive been so sickly nowadays,
panadols are popped in to my mouth everynow and then.
i just think dat seeing doctors are simply a waste of money.
it's always e same words that they will say,
give you a mc letter and forty bucks are gone.
i dont want.
it always seems that i am healthy as ever after visiting e clinic.
whats there to be afraid of?
at e most,i die.
it's only that i will regret.

regret that i can never be with him ;
regret that i can never be a pilot ;
regret that i can never see him again .

buddlha bless.
i wanna get a job real soon .

<3.
In love and death.
8:52:00 PM

20050802

Wearing her new-bought white silk long dress,something like a wedding gown,she stood in front of the full-length mirror with golden borders around it.Her long brown smooth hair was lying comfortably on her chest.She was so pretty that she could hardly believe the girl in the reflection was her.She was going to meet a boy who asked her out.A handsome and suave young man.But did she likes her,she had no idea either.She wanted to give it a try,just to forget the boy she truly loves.

Five minutes later,she was still standing in front of the mirror.Dazed.What went wrong in her mind?How can she give it a try to these things?No,she told herself.She knew who she wanted to be with,to spend time in a serious relationship with the boy she loves deeply.It was still the boy,nothing has ever changed.She wouldn't even glance at other boys ever again.In her heart,that particular boy is the most perfect and most good-looking guy in the world.She will continue to wait for him,no matter how many torments she have to endure.

Written;

TingYuan(:

Is something going to happen to me on the 12th of August 2005?

<3.
In love and death.
2:14:00 AM

20050801

I give up ;
Idont wanna try loving another person .
I love only YOU ,
no matter how hard it will be .

YOU .

<3.
In love and death.
5:04:00 PM